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Midnight Type: Truths and Troubles

/ addiction, alcohol, beach, childhood, family, getting over my past, memories, mother, moving forward, sisters, truth

It’s midnight and I can’t sleep. I have a lot on my mind and drugs (prescribed) in my body so I’m just going to ramble. Not […]

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Sex with a Stranger

/ choices, counseling, getting over my past, guilt, memories, mistakes, promiscuity, shame, small self, stuck

Eyes open. I am naked in a bed next to a man who is naked. Heavy, pounding pain with the pace and purpose of a fetal

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Giving up things of the world

/ acceptance, adderall, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, baggage, beach, beliefs, binge drinking, blogging to be better, borderline, boundaries, depression, father, Jesus, living a better story, living below my potential, loneliness, loving myself today, memoir, memories, mental illness, mother

I just want to float away. It seems too easy to be that easy – you can just leave all the pain behind and no longer be in pain even though you’ve floated away from everyone who loves you?

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Winter in Spring

/ addiction, alcohol, anger, anxiety, authentic self, baggage, blogging to be better, challenges, childhood, death, decisions, dying, forgiveness, getting out of bed, getting over my past, grace, guilt, healing, human suffering, memoir, memories, mental illness, suicide

“Feels like winter follows you around.” There’s a song by Dermot Kennedy and that is a line in one of his songs. I relate to that

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The Other Scarlet Letter

/ acceptance, aging, ah-ha moments, authentic self, authenticity, blogging to be better, challenges, childhood, choices, closure, confusion, connection, courage, dating, depression, forgiveness, freedom, getting out of bed, getting over my past, grief and loss, growth, guilt, memoir, memories, mental illness, regret, secrets, shame

A. A for abortion. This post is about abortion. So, if that is a topic that offends you or you feel strongly about, I’m telling you

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#7 and #8

/ books, borderline, childhood, getting over my past, healing, memories, mother, reading

My reading of Surviving a Borderline Parent by Kimberlee Roth and Freda B. Friedman, PH.D., LCSW has continued. Here are excerpts I connected with. Ongoing or

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Symptoms of BPD

/ borderline, healing, living a better story, memories, mother

I’ve done a bit more reading of Surviving a Borderline Parent by Kimberlee Roth and Freda B. Friedman , PH.D., LCSW. My last two readings were

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Great-Grandparents: My Saving Grace

/ blessings, childhood, church, family, grandparents, memories

Knowing I would see Mam-ma and Pap-pa saved me from completely drowning in the trauma surrounding me. They provided me with a refuge away from my

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