Wandering Child
I breathe the air of queens pastRespite I thought was sure to lastI was never meant to be your shadow to castYour tag-along you’d drag alongTo […]
Lonely Contentment
I feel lonely. I feel lonely and alone in the world. I feel like there is a city bustling outside my walls, laughter and comraderie floating
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big steps forward, binge drinking, contentment, drinking, healing, loneliness, reflection
Journaling after reading Nouwen’s Imperative: Live Patiently with the “Not Yet”
I never felt received by my mother, my father, and my stepfather. This lead to me not feeling received by others outside of the home, first
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acceptance, childhood, church, counseling, depression, drinking, emotions, family, getting over my past, growth, Henri Nouwen, hope, love, medication, relationships
To Drink or Not to Drink
Let’s look at my history with alcohol. Multiple arguments, the ending of relationships, the ending of going to school, the ending of a fresh reputation. For
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alcohol, big steps forward, binge drinking, drinking, family, forgiveness
Peculiar
The thing is there’s nothing particularly interesting or unique about me. I’ve just fucked up a lot of times and I want to share my experiences
Depression Disguised/Disguised Depression
It’s true, I am healing from consequences I experienced due to my choices as an adult. I’m not blaming everything on my childhood. A lot of
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choices, depression, drinking, getting over my past, healing, pain, promiscuity, self-sabotage, shame