I wanted to write something eloquent. But fuck it. In my therapy, I am uncovering decades of hurt, beginning from even before my earliest memories. My […]
The brokenhearted child Read More »
acceptance, authenticity, beliefs, big steps forward, blogging to be better, challenges, childhood, confusion, drinking, drug use, drugs, suicide
I never thought of horses as more than a pet for country folk. I wasn’t ever the little girl who asked for a pony for Christmas
When A Soul Awakens: It Begins Without Notice Read More »
equine assisted therapy, healing, horses, lisa wingate, soul awakening
I was instantly engaged and memories were flooding through my head, negative and positive, with peace in knowing that needing to feel validated is okay, as the author says. The Foreword said to me, “this book will be a part of your journey to healing.” So on I read.
Another Borderline Book Read More »
acceptance, authentic self, books, borderline, forgiveness, getting over my past, inner child, looking forward, mother, small self, stability
I breathe the air of queens pastRespite I thought was sure to lastI was never meant to be your shadow to castYour tag-along you’d drag alongTo
Wound up from the sound of my wounds It seems my seams are splitting with the spiting, hitting, biting fighting When does it end, I’m a
The first poem I wrote about being 5 years old and wanting to die Read More »
childhood, domestic violence, poem, suicide
While reading Surviving a Borderline Parent by Kimberlee Roth and Freda B. Friedman, PH.D., LCSW, I came across tidbits of information regarding traits, characteristics, behaviors, emotions, etc. of
Adult Children of Parents with BPD Read More »
books, borderline, challenges, childhood, children, mother
…in the blogging world. …in the job search world. …in the Christian world (which is not of the world) …in the “You’re a 40 year old
This post is probably a “no-no” Read More »
ah-ha moments, authentic self, baggage, beliefs, blogging to be better, borderline, childhood, domestic violence, emotions, family, father, fear, getting over my past, healing, inner child, mother, soul awakening, transformation
I was just re-reading my “About” page, checking for typos and just generally making sure the content is still relevant. And yes, unfortunately it’s still relevant.
I’m still relevant Read More »
authentic self, authenticity, baggage, beliefs, blogging to be better, borderline, childhood, doubt, emotions, feelings, finding my place, getting over my past, growth, guilt, inner child, inner critic, living a better story, love, loving myself today, mistakes, moving forward, ownership, pain, questions, self-sabotage, survival, truth
I just want to float away. It seems too easy to be that easy – you can just leave all the pain behind and no longer be in pain even though you’ve floated away from everyone who loves you?
Giving up things of the world Read More »
acceptance, adderall, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, baggage, beach, beliefs, binge drinking, blogging to be better, borderline, boundaries, depression, father, Jesus, living a better story, living below my potential, loneliness, loving myself today, memoir, memories, mental illness, mother
You are an older version of your childhood. Your mistakes follow you. The places you want to get away from is where you will always end
Three Decades of Beliefs Read More »
beliefs, childhood, identity, life, stuck
“Sometimes you have to find your wings on the way down,” I once heard someone say. Hopeful words if I hadn’t already hit the ground. Where
