Random thoughts on a random day. Kind of not a random day as Labor Day was yesterday. I didn’t do anything but watch Netflix and sleep. That sounds so pitiful to me. That’s not normal, is it? I need guidance because I am very confused. I need to know what is because of my depression and what is normal. Can a regular, successful woman watch Netflix and sleep all day if she wants? I believe the answer is no. So what I believe and how I’m living my life are in conflict. Yes? And that inner-conflict causes stress; it literally puts stress on me using the black-hole heaviness of depression. The thing I need to get over is the same thing that keeps me from getting over it. Depression is a sick cycle. I hate it.
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