This is a “just because” post. Just because I’m feeling good. And feisty.
Have you heard the phrase, “Keep your grass cut low.” That’s where I’m at right now. Reevaluating relationships with painful realizations that things may never be the same again. “How melodramatic!” my husband would say.
But it’s true. It’s my truth. I’m led with humility and love but I’m not viewed that way.
I’ve always had issues with how my family has viewed me. I don’t get credit for the countless challenges I have overcome to get to where I am today. I’m viewed as weak, not as the strong fucking woman I am. For whatever dysfunctional reason, I can be talked to like shit, and then be expected to apologize. Apologize! And you know what? I fucking did it. Pick your battles. I think family relationships are worth calmy saying, even if through gritted teeth, “I am sorry.”
I told my dad I wanted to write a book. And he said, “Write a book!” He said I have the power to make that happen. To make anything happen. Well, I’m making it happen. And some people just aren’t going to like it.
And that’s okay. I won’t allow myself to be silenced because of other’s insecurities and fears. So here it all is.
I’ve got some mind-blowing journal entries to share – times from when I was suicidal to times I was doing great and everything in between. I have a story to tell. And I’m telling it.
With joy,
Kristin
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